What does it mean to be wild?

One of the newer buzzwords I’ve seen going around is “rewilding.”  I think it, in part, stems from Women Who Run With the Wolves, and a host of other literature and forms of media.  But this post is not about tracing the trend, it’s about exploring what it means to me.  And I’m going to be honest: I didn’t read WWRWtW (started it but didn’t finish — story of my life), or any other published work on rewilding, so I’m really just exploring what it means to me.

This is a beginning of a journey.  This is my ideas right now.  I want to read all the books I can on this subject, and this is my starting point.  I’d like to thank Kim and Jessi for recent posts on their Instagram feeds, and Ania for her recent YouTube video on quitting (or not..) your day job.  All of these women pushed me to give wings to this topic, and make some changes in my life that I think will be productive.  Here are some excerpts from their posts that I enjoyed…

Kim…

“Life’s not going to happen to you; it’s up to you to make it happen for yourself.
Dream big and live even bigger.
Dare to go after what it is you want and live the life you so desire. If you’re not sure what that looks like just yet, live life and you’ll figure it out along the way.
Stop waiting for life to begin and realize that yours already has. Grab hold of it, embrace it and live the fuck out of it.”

Jessi…

“I’ve been thinking a lot about the term “rewilding” lately, mostly because it keeps cropping up in unexpected places. Why this desire to let go, to abandon our cultivation for something more primal? I’m a lover of arts and culture and of cultivation–I think it’s important to build and to shape and that the desire to do so is uniquely human. Yet, it can be argued that the pendulum has swung too far–we’re being asked to contort ourselves in ways we don’t bend, and the result is anxiety, stress, and confusion.

The glorious @joannadevoe did a video some time ago where she mentioned a quote that wormed its way into my brain: “If it’s not a hell yes, it’s a no.” I’ve recently adopted this as a mantra, and it’s speaks to my notion of freedom–of following a path that deeply vibrates with my core. For me, this is my “rewilding” process, and I can’t wait to see where it takes me.”

Ania…

“I think that if you have a day job, where you get out and you meet people, you also have like a different mundane kind of spirituality going on…how do you show your spirituality?…is it by actually meeting someone out there, being able to comfort them, to hold space for them, and to talk to them from a place of your soul.”

To me, rewilding, or being wild, is not about hunting, foraging, running through the woods naked, etc.  Those activities are just not accessible, nor entirely appealing, to me.  Maybe the above activities are part of what rewilding is about, I don’t know.  To me, rewilding is about shaking things up and getting back to my true center.  To me, rewilding, at its core, is about self-care.  It’s about listening to your intuition, listening to what your soul is singing.

And, to be honest, I’ve felt a bit blocked lately.  I’ve always prided myself on being very “me” but lately I don’t feel like I’m “living my truth” (not a huge fan of this particular buzz phrase, but it’s accurate in this situation). Right now, I’m just feeling so off that I feel I need to pull everything out emotionally and change it all up.

So, this is what I’m thinking….

  • More books.  Not purchasing more books (though that will inevitably happen, I’m sure), but I mean more reading of books.  I’ve been very, very bad about not reading the books that I purchase.  This is somewhat of a complex goal for me because to spend more time reading means that I must, inherently, not spend that time doing other things… A sort of flex goal for me is to read 12 books before I purchase more.
  • More prayer.  Prayer is deeply personal, sacred, and connects us to a greater whole.  Prayer is like poetry for the divine.  I’m feeling called to more moments spent in prayer.  Inherently, I feel this includes more moments spent meditating.
  • More hair.  It’s time to commit to this experiment of growing my hair to see how long I can really get it.
  • More meat.  Oh my goodness, this one I’ve struggled with.  This issue could have it’s own blogpost, but, here’s a summary.  As you may know, I used to be vegan (for a year).  I stopped when I went to Germany last September because I didn’t want to worry about it on the trip, but then I never went back.  Since then, I’ve been treating my body consistently worse.  I enjoyed eating vegan, but never got my body where I wanted it to be.  My partner agreed to do Paleo with me (and he would never have agreed to even be vegetarian full time).  So we’re going to give it a 30 day (from today’s date of publishing) trial.  There is this amazing little Farm Stop shop near my apartment that has tons of local meat and eggs, so that will be the only place that I purchase meat/eggs.

This list could continue on, but these are my main points so far.  The over-arching goal for me is to spend less time on my phone and on the internet.  Yes, the tarot/spirituality community on IG is a lovely thing, and it’s helped me in so many ways.  However, I’ve found that some times it create undo pressure and expectations for me that is not productive.  Instead of doing what I can, or continuing to do what I do, I see XYZ on Instagram and want that instead………. Not good cycle.

In a way I guess these ideas are in line with my new year’s affirmations…

  • My goals are not a chore; they are so that I can be a better me.
  • I spend my time and money in beneficial ways.
  • Practice is a part of ritual and learning.
  • I nourish and care for my body appropriately.
  • I give myself space to relax and open up.

And I suppose February 28, on the cusp of March, is a good time to pull those out and reexamine the progress  that I have made (or not) on those fronts.  Just another reminder to constantly refinine my practice (my 2017 word).

Anyway, I apologize to anyone if I’m totally off-base about rewilding.  And, if you’ve gotten this far in the post: congratulations!, it was a bit long.  I’ll wrap it up by briefly discussing my cards of passing and upcoming month.  For March (one from my twelve month forecast by Benebell, and one pulled by myself): knight of cups and the architect of vessels (from the Slow Holler, the king of cups).  Both cups, and both of the court!  It looks that I will have a watery, intuitive month.  I will admit, I don’t identify very strongly with the suit of cups, but we’ll see what it brings.  So far, the idea of re-centering myself emotionally and focusing on self-care seems right on point.

As for February, the four of pentacles (my card for February from Benebell) followed me around a bit, and still encourages me to make a plan and seek the treasure(s) within and to subsequently share them with others.  The nine of vessels was the card I drew for myself, which I feel is kind of an ambivalent card.  But I did enjoy my month — perhaps a bit too much — which is why, maybe, I’m feel called to scale back and focus on appropriate self-care in the next month.

What do you think of rewilding?  What do you have going on in March?  What are you card(s) for March?  Let me know in the comments!

exploringly yours,
Alaina x