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What does it mean to be wild?

One of the newer buzzwords I’ve seen going around is “rewilding.”  I think it, in part, stems from Women Who Run With the Wolves, and a host of other literature and forms of media.  But this post is not about tracing the trend, it’s about exploring what it means to me.  And I’m going to be honest: I didn’t read WWRWtW (started it but didn’t finish — story of my life), or any other published work on rewilding, so I’m really just exploring what it means to me.

This is a beginning of a journey.  This is my ideas right now.  I want to read all the books I can on this subject, and this is my starting point.  I’d like to thank Kim and Jessi for recent posts on their Instagram feeds, and Ania for her recent YouTube video on quitting (or not..) your day job.  All of these women pushed me to give wings to this topic, and make some changes in my life that I think will be productive.  Here are some excerpts from their posts that I enjoyed…

Kim…

“Life’s not going to happen to you; it’s up to you to make it happen for yourself.
Dream big and live even bigger.
Dare to go after what it is you want and live the life you so desire. If you’re not sure what that looks like just yet, live life and you’ll figure it out along the way.
Stop waiting for life to begin and realize that yours already has. Grab hold of it, embrace it and live the fuck out of it.”

Jessi…

“I’ve been thinking a lot about the term “rewilding” lately, mostly because it keeps cropping up in unexpected places. Why this desire to let go, to abandon our cultivation for something more primal? I’m a lover of arts and culture and of cultivation–I think it’s important to build and to shape and that the desire to do so is uniquely human. Yet, it can be argued that the pendulum has swung too far–we’re being asked to contort ourselves in ways we don’t bend, and the result is anxiety, stress, and confusion.

The glorious @joannadevoe did a video some time ago where she mentioned a quote that wormed its way into my brain: “If it’s not a hell yes, it’s a no.” I’ve recently adopted this as a mantra, and it’s speaks to my notion of freedom–of following a path that deeply vibrates with my core. For me, this is my “rewilding” process, and I can’t wait to see where it takes me.”

Ania…

“I think that if you have a day job, where you get out and you meet people, you also have like a different mundane kind of spirituality going on…how do you show your spirituality?…is it by actually meeting someone out there, being able to comfort them, to hold space for them, and to talk to them from a place of your soul.”

To me, rewilding, or being wild, is not about hunting, foraging, running through the woods naked, etc.  Those activities are just not accessible, nor entirely appealing, to me.  Maybe the above activities are part of what rewilding is about, I don’t know.  To me, rewilding is about shaking things up and getting back to my true center.  To me, rewilding, at its core, is about self-care.  It’s about listening to your intuition, listening to what your soul is singing.

And, to be honest, I’ve felt a bit blocked lately.  I’ve always prided myself on being very “me” but lately I don’t feel like I’m “living my truth” (not a huge fan of this particular buzz phrase, but it’s accurate in this situation). Right now, I’m just feeling so off that I feel I need to pull everything out emotionally and change it all up.

So, this is what I’m thinking….

  • More books.  Not purchasing more books (though that will inevitably happen, I’m sure), but I mean more reading of books.  I’ve been very, very bad about not reading the books that I purchase.  This is somewhat of a complex goal for me because to spend more time reading means that I must, inherently, not spend that time doing other things… A sort of flex goal for me is to read 12 books before I purchase more.
  • More prayer.  Prayer is deeply personal, sacred, and connects us to a greater whole.  Prayer is like poetry for the divine.  I’m feeling called to more moments spent in prayer.  Inherently, I feel this includes more moments spent meditating.
  • More hair.  It’s time to commit to this experiment of growing my hair to see how long I can really get it.
  • More meat.  Oh my goodness, this one I’ve struggled with.  This issue could have it’s own blogpost, but, here’s a summary.  As you may know, I used to be vegan (for a year).  I stopped when I went to Germany last September because I didn’t want to worry about it on the trip, but then I never went back.  Since then, I’ve been treating my body consistently worse.  I enjoyed eating vegan, but never got my body where I wanted it to be.  My partner agreed to do Paleo with me (and he would never have agreed to even be vegetarian full time).  So we’re going to give it a 30 day (from today’s date of publishing) trial.  There is this amazing little Farm Stop shop near my apartment that has tons of local meat and eggs, so that will be the only place that I purchase meat/eggs.

This list could continue on, but these are my main points so far.  The over-arching goal for me is to spend less time on my phone and on the internet.  Yes, the tarot/spirituality community on IG is a lovely thing, and it’s helped me in so many ways.  However, I’ve found that some times it create undo pressure and expectations for me that is not productive.  Instead of doing what I can, or continuing to do what I do, I see XYZ on Instagram and want that instead………. Not good cycle.

In a way I guess these ideas are in line with my new year’s affirmations…

  • My goals are not a chore; they are so that I can be a better me.
  • I spend my time and money in beneficial ways.
  • Practice is a part of ritual and learning.
  • I nourish and care for my body appropriately.
  • I give myself space to relax and open up.

And I suppose February 28, on the cusp of March, is a good time to pull those out and reexamine the progress  that I have made (or not) on those fronts.  Just another reminder to constantly refinine my practice (my 2017 word).

Anyway, I apologize to anyone if I’m totally off-base about rewilding.  And, if you’ve gotten this far in the post: congratulations!, it was a bit long.  I’ll wrap it up by briefly discussing my cards of passing and upcoming month.  For March (one from my twelve month forecast by Benebell, and one pulled by myself): knight of cups and the architect of vessels (from the Slow Holler, the king of cups).  Both cups, and both of the court!  It looks that I will have a watery, intuitive month.  I will admit, I don’t identify very strongly with the suit of cups, but we’ll see what it brings.  So far, the idea of re-centering myself emotionally and focusing on self-care seems right on point.

As for February, the four of pentacles (my card for February from Benebell) followed me around a bit, and still encourages me to make a plan and seek the treasure(s) within and to subsequently share them with others.  The nine of vessels was the card I drew for myself, which I feel is kind of an ambivalent card.  But I did enjoy my month — perhaps a bit too much — which is why, maybe, I’m feel called to scale back and focus on appropriate self-care in the next month.

What do you think of rewilding?  What do you have going on in March?  What are you card(s) for March?  Let me know in the comments!

exploringly yours,
Alaina x

19 thoughts on “What does it mean to be wild?

  1. One of the reasons I identify so much with Strength is that I see in that card a woman who has befriended and allied herself with her primal, wild nature, such that it is a deep asset, a fundamental power, a source of purpose and self-possession, a channeled passion. I feel wild on the inside, a layer of my being that is always just below the surface, but always present and palpable. I think it’s less “rewilding” and more tapping into that ferocity we carry within, that has always been there. I’m right there with you. And I am digging the Paleo style diet so far, too 🙂

    1. Yes! I love what you’ve written and completely identify with that as well. I read Strength as owning her wildness, rather than taming it, like you do :). Love that.

      I’m happy Paleo is going well for you so far! Keep me posted 🙂

  2. “My goals are not a chore…” woah, well said. I could use that affirmation, as well! I totally feel you on the IG community. It’s so beneficial, but it definitely ends up making me veer off my path from time to time.

    I like your idea of rewilding as essentially coming back into your body, into your life, and *doing* the things you tell yourself you want to do. And I think the Cups court cards for March sound like a great way for you to step into that space by allowing yourself to *feel* and listen to your intuition. I bet the more you read and spend time in prayer next month, the better you’ll be able to grasp what being wild means to you, too!

    You totally inspired me to write about this topic also; gonna get working on that tonight! ❤

    1. Feel free to use it 🙂

      Thanks for your comments. I agree the cups cards are a good guide, bringing me back to my emotive self, what my soul is calling for. And I can’t wait to see how my definition of being wild may change!

      I can’t wait to read your post!

  3. I love the focus on prayer (and meditation obv. ;)) And reading! This is so in alignment with what I’m working on now, too. I did finish WWRWTW unlike TGW and I found I really had to put it down for a bit, then come back to it, then put it down…it wasn’t one of those “can’t stop til I finish” reads. xox

  4. Something that has worked for me for the ‘find time to read books’ issue is to always having a book available during toilet breaks. These are time-outs you need to take anyways, and you would be surprised how many books you can get through in a year in just, say, 3 times 5 minutes every day. (The only real risk is that you get so hooked on what you’re reading that your toilet breaks get quite a lot longer then they’re supposed to 🙂 )

  5. Love this post and yes made it all the way to the end. Reading the books we have, playing with the decks we have and enjoying the simple life is rewilding enough for me 😀

    1. Congrats Ellen haha! By the time I finished writing it I though “ooooh man it’s a long one!”

      Oh yes you put it wonderfully: the simple life, definitely.

  6. Thank you for the honourable mention my dear! I love what you have written here, it’s such an interesting topic to think about. I had the Atticus quote “love her but leave her wild” on a chalkboard in my bedroom and partner took wild to mean the literal definition of primitive, savage. I had a hard time explaining to him that it meant something else to me. I agree with all you said, wild to me is about authenticity, about living or searching for our truth and there is so many ways we can do that! Reading has been a HUGE priority of mine this year too. On that note, It has taken me about a year to read WWRWTW, I come and go with it and find that when I return to it is when I need it most. Also, I agree with your thoughts about IG. I adore the community but I spend WAY (WAY!!) too much time on my phone as a result. That being said, it’s a great platform to build connection and keep conversations like this going, so I hope we all do more of that moving forward as well.
    Much love to you dear!
    xx Kim

    1. Oh you’re so welcome. Your words meant a lot to me. I love that quote. I feel that my partner wouldn’t really understand it either haha! Authenticity is a great word, here, too. Truth, yes, perfect. I know, yikes, I need to limit my time on IG, but it’s so fun making friends and having these conversations! A time and a place I suppose 🙂

  7. I knew this was going to be juicy – love this post! And I totally feel you when it comes to books – I’m the same and trying super hard this year to change that as well.

  8. I haven’t even heard about this trend before, maybe because I’m not the biggest fan of buzzwords? Maybe they just avoid me because of that 😉 But I am planning on finally reading this book and I think it may be something just for me.
    Two years ago I abandoned my entire life in a big city to live in a small town in an other country with my beloved one. It was the best decision I ever made. If a buzzword is going to make more people make big decisions that can change their life forever (for the better) then I’m not even mad 😉
    I’m wishing you all the luck with your plans! I found that reading more books gets very easy one you make it into a mandatory daily ritual, I always read before bed and it makes me read much more and sleep much better 😉

    1. I’m not a huge fan of buzzwords myself, haha, so I totally get where you’re coming from. But if the idea appeals to you, I’m certain you’d enjoy WWRWTW. As I said, I started it and it was wonderful, but never managed to finish it.

      Oh wow, that sounds like a huge change and one that would really shake things up! That’s so great that you’re happy with the decision. (Sometimes I think that’s something I would want to do, too…).

      Oh thank you! I do love the idea of reading before bed! I think I should really work on that. I have been reading on the bus to work this week, so that has been productive! 🙂

  9. I loved your reflection on what being wild/rewilding means for you. I also am feeling similar to how you are feeling, like a little off, not sure why. February was such a high energy month, I had high expectations for March, but it’s not feeling the same, so I am working on accepting that and just letting it be.

    I might do a blog response (br?) to your post, since I have a few thoughts to share on this too!

    1. I know what you mean about February being a bit intense. Things have seemed to slow down this month…

      Yes, would love a blog response to this post! 🙂

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