Another full moon has passed (check out the full virtual ritual that Leanna and I hosted here), and I must say I’m really loving creating and using my own spreads for the new and full moons. It lends another level of mystique and exploration to the moon cycle. The cards I pulled for my spread turned out pretty meaty — three majors beyond the Strength card that we pulled out separately — and I’ve been pulling influences in from all sides on how to interpret these cards. (Namely from Olivia, and from Rose.)
- Message from my inner child. The Emperor.
Well, as it turns out, the Emperor has become a bit of a stalker card since last Friday. I pulled him in this spread, in another full moon spread, and Sammy pulled him for me in a reading I purchased from her. It’s kind of an odd message from my Inner Child, but Jodi told me, after I wrote a poem about dragons yesterday, that she feels that the Emperor is the dragon held in our heart. I always feel that the Emperor tells me to stand tall and respect myself. He doesn’t look super pleasant, though, does he? And I think he’s a tough archetype to love, because though he stands as the “father” of the tarot, he just doesn’t feel very warm-hearted to me (like I feel all dads/parents should be, like mine :)). He reminds us of the usefulness of having a game plan and structure, and setting milestones along the way to our dreams. My inner child wants me to be confident, remember my goals, and make a plan to get there already!
- Message from my present self. Nine of Swords.
Yikes. Really, present self? Nine of Swords? Admittedly, yes, I do feel like I’m in a bit of a rut. I’m working a weird schedule, and have a lot that I want to accomplish (and I am!) but also, there are so many other things I want to do right now… Writing more, exercising more, eating better… And I’m not. Are there just not enough hours in the day? Or am I letting myself be pigeon-holed into distractions? Here, the Nine of Swords reminds us that many of our anxieties are imagined, in our mind, like the nightmares of our sleep. Shake out of it, girl. Get out of these weird mind cycles. “Be your own warrior,” as Olivia wrote.
- Message from my higher self. King of Swords.
The Swords, despite their weirdly negative cards, is the suit I most identify with. I mean, I’m an Aquarius, and I like my words and wit and intellect. The King of Swords, the pinnacle of the swords suit, showing up as my message from my higher self is telling me to trust in my wisdom, my self-awareness. He harnesses his wisdom for a higher, collective purpose. I think this King is speaking toward the activism work that I am getting into, which is what my higher self wants for me, anyway.
- What ego pattern(s) must I dismantle right now? The Empress.
I’ve often said that I don’t really connect with the Empress archetype, but perhaps this is a good time for me to look at this card from a different angle. She featured in my reading with Sammy as well, and I think what she wrote for me may be part of this puzzle. And also — why don’t I connect with the Empress? I think this relates to the “not being a mother”…. Definitely some stuff to explore here.
- My deck’s Strength card.
Isn’t Strength such a power major? One of my favorites, and connected to Leo astrologically. This card always reminds me to roar my powerful lioness roar.
- How can I share more of myself with the greater world? The Hierophant.
So, this last card makes my spread evenly gender balanced. I very rarely pull the Hierophant (and Emperor… and Empress…), but Rose’s YouTube video on the Hierophant really brought him to life for me. Where the High Priestess is about our intuitive, deep knowing, the Hierophant is there to bring this in to reality. He is the action, the showing up, bringing thought to form. He is the practice (my word of 2017) of the wisdom we dreamed from the High Priestess. In this way, he is a perfect answer here.
Well, and here is my Leo full moon lunar eclipse spread by Vanessa, a lot of familiar cards here (8 of cups, page of swords) and, of course, again, the Emperor in the last position, “my forward focus on accelerating toward new goals.” Seems the Emperor has a lot in store for me.
What is it about February, though, eh? We’re halfway through! Besides being my birthday month (just turned 29, heyo!), there is a fresh promise of new beginnings. We just passed Imbolc, the light is returning, the seeds are planted and going about their business of growing. The sun has been rising earlier, staying up later, and I can’t deny that I love the clear, mild days we’ve been having around my parts (even though it makes me think of climate change non-stop…). The birds have been more alive, the sidewalks are no longer covered in ice, and the fresh air rejuvenates me.
The other day, I was working in an operating room that has an outdoor view. It was 6 PM and the sun was beginning its descent and the sky was a pinkish-grey.
“You know it’s February when it’s 6 PM and still light out,” I said to the room.
“….or it could be October,” responded my surgeon with a sarcastic, dry laugh.
Truth. But I’m happy it’s February, the world is walking up, and spring is on the way. With February and it’s unfurling, I’ve been practicing my poetry in an exercise called “Post-it note poetry” (#pinp17), which is hosted by Jodi on Instagram. I’ve been wanting to experiment with poetry of late, and this was the perfect opportunity. I must say I’m pretty happy with the results, even if the poems are somewhat rudimentary.
Themes of love and loss and the vastness of experience. #Basic, but whatever I’m loving the exercise.
And I got some good news today that I’m not quite able to share yet, so stay tuned *vague, I know, sorry*…. I think the Emperor is definitely speaking to all the “empire” building I’m doing right now, as well. It feels good to be moving and shaking and making progress.
Anyway, what have you all been up to? How did you enjoy the full moon last Friday? How’s your February going? Let me know in the comments below.